Witch Hunt

I've been on a witch hunt.

There. I've said it. Confessed it. And now...I can let it go. Now I can ask God to forgive me for trying to use one of His gifts...discernment...to "get" them.

Because truthfully...if God had revealed to me just who my "mole" was...I would have added to my sin count.

I was already struggling under my anger. Under my unforgiveness. Under my bitterness. I had been "wronged"...and I wanted justice. (Yet ANOTHER sin...because vengeance belongs to God.)

Romans 12 is one of the best places to turn when you feel like you've been wronged...and you want someone to pay. (You can read it in it's entirety below the post.)

I was struggling with the fact that my witch/mole was among my brethren...and I didn't feel it was fair that I had to "play by the rules" yet they didn't.

I was stuck on..."how can you runtelit on me...when your hands are just a different dirty."

But God's a good God. He knows all and He sees all. He is with them...just as He is with me...and He doesn't care to hear us rant about who did what...He cares that we know and grow from the thing in us individually ...that made us do what we did individually.

In other words...it's no more my business how God deals with them...as it is theirs how He deals with me.

God wants me to take a look at not what has been done wrong to me...but the wrong I did....

OUCH...

Even if they did an ugly horrible...

What did I do?

Even if they cut me to the white meat...

What did I do?

Even if they did the unforgivable...

(No such thing! Because I have been forgiven too much to withhold forgiveness!)

What did I do?

You get where I'm going, right?

What they did to me...is none of my business. What I do to God is....

If it is possible, AS MUCH AS IT DEPENDS ON [ME], live peaceably with all men. ROMANS 12:18

Amen!

Romans 12:1-21 NKJV

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which  is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of  himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let  us  use  them: if prophecy, let  us  prophesy in proportion to our faith; or ministry, let  us  use  it in our ministering; he who teaches, in teaching; he who exhorts, in exhortation; he who gives, with liberality; he who leads, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness. Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,” says the Lord. Therefore “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him a drink; For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.